Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Growing Up

Here's the strange part. I've always been afraid of growing up. But with age comes wisdom. Yea it sounds funny to say it like that but it's true.

Years ago when i was graduating from high school or even further back when i was graduating middle school in 2000. WOW. almost 11 years ago. So much has changed and I've learned so much.

The last few days I've come to realize a couple things about myself and people in general. In life everyone works hard to get where they want to go. Some make it further than the others and sometimes the universe has something else in mind. So everyone's plans change. I never planned to be in New York at this age, single, looking for a career change. But here I am! Some people planned to finish high  school then go to college and then get a job in whatever. For some that happened. For some, it wasn't so black and white. There's a lot of grey in life. How you react and adapt to situations in life is what makes you, you.
I went to a public middle school and then a catholic high school. I'm not sure if it was the education or the upbringing or the choices we make as we grow up but everyone's life didn't go according to plan. I think it has a lot to do with the choices we make which are stemmed from how we were raised. There were people who didn't think I would go anywhere in life, because I was a shy 8th grader. years later when I ran into the same people from my class of 2000. It was apparent that I was headed in the direction to do big things. I could have rubbed it in their faces, getting a scholarship to a private university or living in a big city like Chicago at the time and making 3X if not more than them. But clearly we are all happy in our own way.

People work hard in their own capacity. I realized this then and again recently that people make choices and you live with those choices and you accept it because that it reality. Generally everyone is happy with the way things are and the ones that aren't happy, well they could be in an entirely different situation and things could be far worse.
Everyone has to live their own life and stop worrying about others. where they are in life, etc etc. It's not a game. Everybody has a different way of thinking and everyone goes someplace in life and more often than not. Everyone knows how and why they got there.

Life isn't a competition, it's about getting somewhere right? Success? why not focus on being the best "you" and you will automatically get everything you deserve.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

It's a matter of time

It's a matter of time when things will go right instead of wrong. It's a matter of time when I won't be misunderstood by some people. It's a matter of time I will know more about myself than I do today.

 It's a process and does someone really know themselves entirely? I know what I like and don't like. I think everyone has to figure things out and that's what I've been doing. Everyday is something new right? Just trying to live 1 day at a time....let's where life takes me :)